My yoga teacher read this poem in class over the weekend, and it really hit home. The journey toward health and healing is not an easy one. It doesn’t happen overnight. But gradually, bit by bit, as we better understand our bodies, what we need and our “normal,” we can choose life. We can let go, small decision by small decision. May this bring you as much encouragement as it brought me.
Hi. My name is MJ, and I am recovering from bulimia. This first post will be a short one…I really just wanted to make a simple introduction and set a few intentions for the blog. I hope this is a place for honesty, community and healing. I hope through openness my imperfect journey out of bulimia and disordered eating brings light to how these behaviors rob us of joy, but more importantly, to enliven the hope that freedom is possible. I hope to share my walk toward a life of freedom, and for you to feel comfortable doing the same.
For the past sixteen years, I have lived a life tainted by bulimia. Bingeing, purging, and obsessive thoughts about food were my normal.
At times I fought against it, at times I welcomed the comfort it brought. After months of working with a counselor, last week I finally woke up and was tired of the monster that had been robbing me of life. I said good-bye, and with that, chose life.
I know it’s early in my recovery, but I want this to be in real-time… for us to walk through it together. It won’t be easy, but I feel so much hope for the future, and want to encourage others—that real, deep change is possible. If I can get there, anyone can.
Thanks for joining me…